How Hell Works…



Have you ever heard the saying…

Religion is for those afraid of Hell… Spirituality is for those who have already been there.

Whether you believe there is a Hell in the middle of the earth or not, that is not what this post is about. This post is about the actual “Individual Soul’s” reaction to Hell,  living, or dead.

I see it all the time. People standing right next to each other, one is living in Heaven while the other is in Hell. I assume anyone reading this has experienced this first hand, or has witnessed it.

So what is the Hell I am talking about?

To start, I believe we have the ability to create our own perceptions of Reality.


As both you and I look at this apple, we would both say it is green. Unless you experience color-blindness, and yet, due to the make up of our eyes, our vision receptors, etc, we may not be seeing the same hue of green. The reality is, the apple is green. Your perception and mine, can be totally different.

So, through our perception, combined with our emotion, we create that which we see and accept. Same goes for living in either Heaven or Hell. I know this to be true as for many years of my life (say the first 40), I lived in hell. A state of my own design. Trapped in it, experiencing major depression on a massive scale. For whatever reason, when I reached rock bottom, and the last question was a choice between End? or Continue? There was always the tiniest spark of life that reminded me to choose to continue. It was close a few times…

There are teachings and expressions in all forms being shown to us everyday. Where we can see and hear the truth of what is being expressed.

If you haven’t seen the FOX TV show Lucifer, it is a great revealing of several truths about the Human creation of Hell. The Self Created Torture that we as Human Beings can experience internally, and project externally upon everything.

This clip gives a prime example of how our own guilt places us in hell. I have the transcription of this clip below. My favorite line when asked how the professor can get out of Hell?

“Oh, it’s quite simple, You can’t… Not until you believe you no longer deserve it.”


Professor; It keeps happening over and over, like I’m in hell.

Lucifer; There is no like about it. 

Professor; What is this?

Lucifer;This is a torture of your own making… Fueled by guilt, with a little bit of flair thrown in for fun.

Professor; How do I get out of here?

Lucifer; Oh, it’s quite simple, You can’t…
Not until you believe you no longer deserve it. And I’ve never seen anyone pull themselves out of here.

Starting to see how we design Hell?

Gregg Bradden, Author of several books, and a speaker, wrote a book called “Walking Between the Worlds”. In this book he spoke of a fire meditation in which you gaze into the clear space within a flame. While he was doing this, after a time, a head started to emerge from the flames. It was quite gruesome and brought fear to his core, as he was alone. This head revealed itself as Lucifer, ruler of the underworld. But as it turned towards him it morphed into the face of a crying innocent child.

Think about it. For 200 million + years, Lucifer was asked by God, and charged with holding the darkness, for us, in this world of duality.

Can you imagine how lonely and perilous an experience. To be an Angel of Light, and to be given the task of holding our worst? So, if this were your task, and everything us Humans do that is unsavory, was handed to you, as we blame you for all of it. Wouldn’t you react like Lucifer does in this clip?

And at this time we are seeing what happens when no one takes responsibility for their choices and actions. We have the biggest darkest scapegoat there is.

So how do we get to Hell for ourselves? We self implode.

We get so deep into our own pain, often to the point that we have no perception of the outside world. We see people, but they are just shells, blurred movements before us, that have no resemblance to those we know and love, when we are in the depths of our darkest hours.

I know this swimming hole, and I am glad I learned how to swim.

In the film What Dreams May Come, we are shown how our emotions and feelings of grief are important to release the things that have come up for us. The trap is not choosing to come out the other-side.

(Spoiler alert)

This is exemplified through the characters of the wife Annie, who lost her children and then her husband. The weight of the grief cut her off from the rest of reality, and then she committed suicide.

Our Soul lives on, if we choose to live a Soul Surviving Life (an earlier post), and our Soul Personality continues. What we hold the most energetically when we transition, is what we will carry with us. This is depicted in this movie. Annie has no idea she had died. Because her Soul’s vibration-ality was stuck at such a low frequency for so long, it was the only thing she knew and carried with her.

For myself, the moment of clarity during my many years of struggle with depression, was that no one had ever told me I had a choice. I never realized through all that time that I could change the direction my being was heading, just by making the choice to do so.

And so it is… Heaven or Hell is just a choice away.

I don’t say this glibly. It is not easy, and it took years of trial and error for me, but eventually I did it. I learned to understand the signs of an energetic dive into my despair… I learned to be afraid, and to choose life anyway… And so can you.

Blessings, Love and Light to you and those your hold dear. In your heart and in your shadow…


It is always, Both / And…


As I watch the polarization of humanity, in all different realms in our world of duality, I have seen a simple solution.

We must realize that the answer is always, Both / And…

What do I mean by this? Lets look at a few examples.

Religion and Science

Evolution or Creative Design?

How about both. There is a constant debate, back and forth, between these two camps. What if we accept it is both, as explained in the book, “BioCentrism” by Robert Landa, MD.

The fact that we exist to witness the wonders of our universe, while having such a limited perceptual field, brings the notion that it wouldn’t exist if it wasn’t for us to perceive.

This supports the concept that when we think of the creation story, it is a metaphoric translation of the fact that the beginning of the universe, was the first conscious thought. And as another and another thought was added to the whole, there was a space for light to be created.

My point being, it would take both the etheric unfoldings, of creations perfection, to stimulate such a small vibrational frequency bandwidth,  for us to perceive. And, the physical and conscious evolution of those  creatures upon the planet, to transmute into the physical expressions that survive today. As we see those whose beings were designed for a different time (like a Rhinoceros), edging out of the newer, higher bandwidth, that the planet and other conscious beings are moving into.

Science is the measuring stick, but science let go of the ghost in the machine. When Descartes declared the universe a mechanical system. It relegated the spiritual element that the Mystics, Druids and other Alchemists held to the shadows. Removing the combined connection that both Science and Spirituality brought to the table.

Finally, with quantum physics, we are bringing the two sects of duality in this matter back to the marriage they held for so many years. The observer effects the observed.

Freewill & Fate-

Once again, not separate entities, but two sides of the same coin.

There is, as many of us have lived, the flow of life. Where synchronicity seems to be firing off for us as we move forward. And other times where we feel like we are swimming against a raging rapids.

So in this syncronistic patterning, life and our individual aspect of our Soul, are offered a course to flow within.  Sometimes this flow happens when we are following a contract we have set up with another before we arrived here, other agreements are made in dreams, with other sleeping Souls.

The Freewill portion of this combination is our choice how to respond to what is placed before us. If each of us is an expression of Spirit, combined with our individual aspect of self, the error comes in choosing against what you know to be the true answer or action.

Most of us choose to hide in the fear instead of realizing that the gift of synchronicity is on the other-side of our fear.

Both / And… If things weren’t set in motion for us from external forces, we would never be challenged to stretch our bodies or consciousness in the ways we do when thrust into situations, where we say WTF? And forgetting that we set up the moment for ourselves.

Taking Action and Trusting the Universe to provide

As we each direct the creation of our lives, through our choices and flow, we step into the video game of life.

When my children were younger, I used this to describe how to work with life. Deciphering between the possibilities and the probabilities.

I told them to think about it as if playing a role-playing game. They are their Higher Self, projecting this physical body into the 3 dimensional realm, and arriving at a door.

The universe provided the door. We have to choose whether it is a door for us, or not. Once we walk into a level, it is our act of trusting that the Clues have been placed all around us, to find, interpret, and take actions upon those findings. Do I break open this box or that one, find the potion or trinket that will help us as we move to the next level.

All the clues are there. We just have to get our Ego, out-of-the-way. The aspect of ourselves which believes it knows best by taking action only to serve the self. Whether it is hiding from our fears, or acting out in controlling, and unhappy ways, because life becomes much more of a struggle when we try to force life to match our will only.

Politics and the Two Party System- Okay… I’m not even going to touch this one at this time. Ha!

These are just a few of ways we can bring the conflicting polarization’s to an end.

If you have other examples of Both / And…, please share them in the comments.

Blessings, Love and Light to you…

Ego or Soul Surviving Life…


I see it all the time. People trying to control their environment through emotional impact or just aggressive exertion. All with the same desired outcome, to control life, avoid fear, and make it through the day. The problem is thinking we are in control, when we are fighting against the current that life is unfolding in front of us.

Starseed 1

This passage is from the book, “The Star-Seed Transmissions”, it was written many years ago, and still it is a guidance reference for those who know we have to raise the vibration of humanity if we are to survive. The issue is, are we willing to trust and move with life? Or, still believe we must push against it, force it to our Ego-will.

Life is always, in the moment, giving us clues as to which direction or choice is going to serve. The problem is, in our fear and most often scarcity consciousness, we stop looking. We choose to not see what is immediately in front of us, shinning just a little brighter, trying to get our attention. Most of the time we sweep it by with our emotions of fear and lack, using our Ego-will, instead of learning to surrender and trust the current flowing around us.

FEAR is an acronym for, “False Evidence Appearing Real”.  As I have spoken before about our 4 body system, fear is just an energetic reminder to open our eyes a little wider, listen a little deeper, to pay attention a little stronger. Mostly we shrink and miss it all. I am still learning this one.

And, everyday I open myself up more to the mystery. To know that in the moment, the answer is there if I look inside, and out, for it. That life wants us to succeed, to flourish, to bring our wholeness to the fore, and make life forwarding choices.

What is a life forwarding choice? Well, if I am an extension of all that is, shouldn’t my choices be made to include all that is? So I have come up with a challenge question to use in the moment when I haven’t found the clues, and still need to make a choice.

“Does the answer I am creating serve everyone involved? Or, just me?”

To live a Soul Surviving Life means to live for life itself… I support it, and it supports me. A symbiotic relationship with the unseen energies that are swirling all around me. To know that I wasn’t placed on this planet to just serve myself. I was placed here to witness life, to record it for all of consciousness, through my senses and my mind. To blend the etheric and the physical into a union that supports all life I come into contact with. It certainly is a challenge, but one worth striving for.

Think of it this way… If all I am doing is living to serve myself, why would life need me to continue? I am in no way contributing to the unfolding of consciousness when I am thinking only of myself.

But, if I am living to witness and dance within the frequencies of Love, support, Light and growth, I am living a life that is beneficial to life. I hold that this is the one thing I can do for the universe and all of its inhabitants. And in doing so, life is happy to oblige my quirky desires from time to time. And, when it is time to transition from 3d to another level of reality, life says, “come along… you have helped us so far, we can use you as we move forward.”

I hold this as Truth. I hope you find your ability to live a Soul Surviving Life… If you feel close, keep moving with it, the miracles that are waiting to unfold are there for you. Not your Ego.

If you find yourself struggling… I am here to help. I’m just a message away. Now, create for life because life includes you!

Where is your heart for the world…


We will win… The light in your heart is needed. As our world spins out of control, it is you who is needed. It is time to drop the fear and separation that our governments and mainstream media want us to believe.

It is time to reach down into your Soul and call upon your courage to stand up for the truth. The truth is that our country is systematically being ripped apart, on purpose. Our supposed leaders certainly have shown us lately that they have no concern for the populace of this nation. How our civil liberties have been sold to the highest bidder. How the corporate controllers are allowed to do whatever they wish, without any fear of reprisal.

We are the one’s who are here to hold them accountable. We are the one’s to start a new American revolution. The problem is that we are too afraid, to lazy, and too comfortable to do anything about it.

As the line in the Broadway Musical,”Hamilton”,

“If you stand for nothing, what will you fall for.”

And it is time to follow this line;

“I would rather be divisive, than indecisive.”

It is time to start making noise. This video is about 40 years old but it is so much more appropriate now.

As I say this it may be misconstrued that I am calling for violence. On the contrary, I am calling for your compassion, your heart, your voice. Speak for those who cannot. Defend the defenceless. Stand up for the right thing. Reach into your heart and become the Angel you pray too. Be the light of Spirit and let your light flood through the darkness. Risk a lot to save a lot. If your precious life is worth living, then what are you living for?

Why are you here, if you are not working to make this world better, why are you here? A flat screen, a pretty rock, your ego being stroked?

Who is willing to help make this world a better place, for my children? For all of the children.

It is time for the old guard and consciousness to be replaced by the new. Are you willing to step out of comfort to recreate the world? You have the power, stop hiding, spread your wings, and light upon all you come in contact with. It will spread… We can change the world.

Whose with me?

Life at it’s core…

How many times life allows us to renew ourselves, as it unfolds before us. 
Each moment our bodies are projected into this 3d world in occilating wave forms of probability. Allowing us in every moment to regenerate and recreate the frequencies of health and direction of path and purpose.

When we drag the anchors of our past experience into the new moment, we are keeping the past moment alive in our cells, and they will respond accordingly.

Miracles exisit within the choosing of a new vision, and conscious choice to disprupt the pattern we have set into motion. 

What miracle would you choose to see unfold in your life, knowing you have the power to instantly create a new vision of where your life should be, and live it without question.

Be the bravest version of yourself and take everyones reaction out of the equation. Where will you find yourself if you did?

Blessings Love & Light to you and those you hold dear…