Midlife Crisis or realignment to the self…

So I bought a new car… Yes, I’m half a century old and it is a sports car. After telling my son he stated he wanted to call it my mid-life crisis. I told him that was fine and we moved on. But it has been sitting with me for days.

A few years ago both my children basically moved away to start their own lives. It was a major event in my world, where we had daily interactions, they be came much less frequent. I went into a self searching mode for a few months, asking the question,

“What do you do when your whole life for the past 23 years was focused on being a parent, and that comes to an end?”

For the first time in my life, since I was 25 years old, I was not directly responsible for the well-being of another human being. I was only truly responsible for myself. It was crazy making going through the release of the parenting mode I had lived in for years and years, and it was about a 2 year process to come to terms with.

So, I started thinking about what I want to do, what I want to have, and who I want to be…

It is not so much a midlife crisis as it is a continuation of where life was before it diverted to parenting. I loved being a parent. It was hard and stressful at times, but it was a wonderful feeling to work to be my best self and guide my children as I could to step into their lives.

Now I am slowly working into my life again. One where my children are not as intertwined with me, and I can create the life that is unfolding before me.

New beginning? Yes. Crisis, no.

I can’t wait to see where this takes me… The journey continues…

Oh, here is a picture of the car I bought… I love it.